I attended “The First Event" in Boston this past January in hopes there would be understanding women admires. Unfortunately there were none. However it showed there were others struggling with issues covering the spectrum of the transgender community. To those I talked with finding a woman was no longer important because they felt it was impossible unless you presented this 24/7 or others had given up becoming complacence with belonging to a group like thenselves. For me finding an accepting woman that I would want to spend your life with is like trying to search for the needle in the haystack. As I get older my optimism fades.