I would like to take this opportunity to greet all of you a happy and wonderful day. always be happy coz all of us are a wonderful human being,like you im looking for long last real one true relationship.by the way just call me kim i already back here in the philippines,its a long complicated story,i been in australia for 10 years.but i decide to go back home,because i feel im not safe in australia,i been a spouse/partner/carer to a 61 year old australian man,i take care of him,pamper him for 7 long years when he had an accident,but when he start to get better he become violent,and start showing paranoia and anxiety,he hook up with drugs and start abusing me,torturing me and locked me up at the basement of our house in Wollongong every time he go out.for 3 years i allowed him to do that to me,because i loved him so dearly, to the point that I lost respect to myself,but the way he treat me escalate when he try to poison me,that time i decide to escape and runaway.i go to the police and they place me,at the refugee centre for abused and domestic violence for women and transgendered like me ,until now he's missing/disappear and at large.police and the australian government are still looking for him.he escape and hiding somewhere in australia,because of the trauma i decide to go back to philippines and start my destroyed and fucked up life and start the pieces put back together, This helpless feeling, that whatever it is I am doing I am doing it wrong, or not doing it at all, this helpless feeling when you are like a piece of trash out in the bay, just being thrown around by the tide with no control, I don't know how I ended up here, or perhaps I do and I don't care to face it, I don't know.
I don't know why I write this. Perhaps I need the catharsis of venting. Perhaps I am incapable of nothing else but self reflection at this point, I don't know. I used to be self sufficient. I used to be something else. What I have become I do not want to be, I want to change that for the better, but damned if I know how. One doesn't think properly on an empty stomach, and this damn ringing in my ear isn't helping.all i know is I'm still hoping that someday I will meet my mr.right,my prince ,my forever and my destiny.to each and every one of you,I already closed my door but my windows still open and I am determined to look and give it a fair go.for the second chance pls pls all of you I want you to know me.whats inside of me not just a pretty face,sexy body but my soul and my heart
you get to know me better have a nice day to each and everyone of yous godbless all of you and have a wonderful day cheers yours truly Elektra My ideal partner is not perfect it doesn't matter if your old,young,sick,less mobile,average etc etc as long as you are going to accept me who I am and my dark past then yet you are the right person for me.i want a partner that him and i or her and I will grow old together,die beautiful together.a one true clean unconditional love and relationship that last